Well, I'm going to start my weight loss journey and I've decided to write about it. I think writing about it will help keep me accountable (hopefully), and therefore help me be a little more successful.
As is true with most women, I have struggled with my weight and body image as long as I can remember. I've never really thought of myself as fat or ugly, but I definitely have things that I want to change or improve on. About 2.5 years ago things were rekindling with an ex boyfriend of mine, the man I thought was the love of my life and who I was going to marry. That all stopped when he told me I had "let myself go". Basically he told me I was too fat for him and he was not attracted to me.
This was devastating to me. I sulked for about a week and then I decided that there may have been some truth in his statement. Although he hurt me, he really helped me more than anyone could have. I started working out every day and eating healthy. Within four months I was down 20 pounds and man did I look good! I felt great, I liked the way I looked, and I was happy.
Then I went home for the summer. That meant not as much time to go to the gym, eating out with friends on a regular basis, and lots of drinking. Gradually over the past two years all the hard work has gone down the drain and I have gained the weight back, plus some.
So my goal is to start working out at least five times a week, and eating healthy. Once I get going to the gym into my routine the rest should come fairly easily. I always each much healthier when I am working out. I just have to get my ass to the gym. And have self control when I go to the grocery store. If I don't have junk food in my apartment then I don't think about it. But when I see it at the store I sometimes have no willpower and end up with a bunch of crap food!
Hopefully there are people out there that can relate to what I'm going through and will join this journey with me!
I'll leave you with a few pictures...
As is true with most women, I have struggled with my weight and body image as long as I can remember. I've never really thought of myself as fat or ugly, but I definitely have things that I want to change or improve on. About 2.5 years ago things were rekindling with an ex boyfriend of mine, the man I thought was the love of my life and who I was going to marry. That all stopped when he told me I had "let myself go". Basically he told me I was too fat for him and he was not attracted to me.
This was devastating to me. I sulked for about a week and then I decided that there may have been some truth in his statement. Although he hurt me, he really helped me more than anyone could have. I started working out every day and eating healthy. Within four months I was down 20 pounds and man did I look good! I felt great, I liked the way I looked, and I was happy.
Then I went home for the summer. That meant not as much time to go to the gym, eating out with friends on a regular basis, and lots of drinking. Gradually over the past two years all the hard work has gone down the drain and I have gained the weight back, plus some.
So my goal is to start working out at least five times a week, and eating healthy. Once I get going to the gym into my routine the rest should come fairly easily. I always each much healthier when I am working out. I just have to get my ass to the gym. And have self control when I go to the grocery store. If I don't have junk food in my apartment then I don't think about it. But when I see it at the store I sometimes have no willpower and end up with a bunch of crap food!
Hopefully there are people out there that can relate to what I'm going through and will join this journey with me!
I'll leave you with a few pictures...
These are all pictures from the summer after I lost the 20 pounds..looking and feeling pretty good!!
And some more recent ones. I find that these days when I take pictures there is usually some editing or cropping that needs to be done before they are posted on any public forum. Hopefully that will change soon!!
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